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September 02, 2007
A bit sad this morning
So Im a bit sad this morning that I didnt win last night. Im trying to place blame, as to where I went wrong or where the other person "went right", and just cant put my finger on it.
The biggest thing that runs through my mind is that I feel like I was set up to fail (but proved certain people wrong). Not by my friends who were judges but by the current SF Leather Daddy and his partner. I lost by 3 points.
I know that they need to promote the event, and get contestants, however when I got to the contest, what threw me for a bit of a loop after they had continuously said they thought I would fit great and pretty much begged me to run for them, was that they had a friend in mind that they played the same way they did me.
So the biggest question I have since I dont know them that well, is if they thought I would be good to get up there because they thought I was a sure loser to the other person. Who knows.
What I do find happiness in, is that once again, I had a ton of support. I raised the most (almost 2/3 and almost $600)again in raffle ticket sales and that to me is what the event is all about. I had people pulling me left and right to buy tickets from me, and throwing money in the bucket just because they wanted me to win. I was definitely the popular of the 2 which made me feel great. It also showed them that I *was visible, can do what I intend to do, and just how many people they didnt realize I knew.
It also showed me the kind of support I have within the community and how much Ive finally been accepted here after 3 years. It will definitely be interesting to see how the rest of my life in SF plays out. After only 3 years, I think Ive built a great amount of friends, am visible in the community, and likedloved by many.
Thank you everyone for being there and supporting me. I appreciate it and love you too. A special thanks to my boyfriend David who helped with the ticket sales, backed me up on this and really showed more support than anyone could ask. I love you.
Posted by Des at September 2, 2007 09:06 AM